SO BE IT

Ah, it feels so good to get to the end of this particular serious on things that must be in one way or another. There are so many of these in live it seems.

Not necessarily by choice, but they're there just the same. Wish life didn't afford us such occasions, but that is not the option.

I'm sitting this particular weekend afternoon with a nice so be it hangover. Getting to drunk on the fantasy of thinking my time off will be heaven and then it turns at best into purgatory.

Somehow in the middle of all of it you look out at the world and say, so be it. Mainly out of resignation. Not maybe joy, but as a way of coping and feeling okay about life sucking.

It is a time for coffee and dessert. And an occasion when indulgence is mandated. Really necessary in order to not get depressed over the realities of life.

Those really do get to you if you let them. Which I still prefer to avoid whenever possible.

There is just something appealing about finding some nice way to savor the moment that will get your mind off the brewing disdain of some really bad situation. I love when I can sneak out and find that way to find some missing smiles.

Really does make for a great day. Or at least a few that will give you reason to forget your unhappiness.

Now that really is such a thrill isn't it? Okay, it is for me. Honestly, that is one thing I do like when I can accomplish it.

Perhaps the down side is trying to do so by a means that will grace you without a need to ruin somebody else's day. I don't really worry about it that much, but avoiding the grief really helps.

So I play the game. I call it that in order to enjoy when I win. That happens when manage to forget the time of my so be it having a reason to give me sadness.

Which really is the most important ingredient. Really that makes so much more sense in my view than anything else.

But that is me. Which is so be it that I can live with. Not that it matters to others, but you know if you can't please yourself, what good is it?

Meanwhile, I'm off to search for the perfect so be it distraction. Might take all night, but I'll try.