STOP, LOOK AND FORGET ABOUT IT

What a wonderful concept. You sit down and pause in the midst of some blunder and decide to accept the reality. You blew it!

Yep, that is so encouraging and helpful. Just a wonderful moment of revelation. One where you hopefully don't quite have need to lie so much.

Now the qualifier see is that you don't tell others about this. That is the big choice. You can't do that.

No matter how much it sucks, no matter how often you feel like you are totally a moron, you just don't bother to tell another soul. Especially a best friend.

That is the quickest way to be sure everyone knows about it. And that is what you definitely don't want.

But that is okay. You just have to remember that rule. Never blab what makes you look like an idiot.

Only surviving such moments without bothering to tell others is really hard. You just have this urge to explain to others why you aren't as dumb as it appears.

So you keep telling yourself, when you get done, you'll feel so much better. And you'll just know the other person will understand.

Oh they understand alright. At least they claim to understand. The whole time they are naturally sitting there smiling and in reality thinking, oh god what an idiot.

Not that they will tell you that directly. That would never work. Nope there is no fun is telling a person they are an idiot directly.

So much for the issue of confidence. Well secrets are great when they stay secrets, but you can be sure this will never happen.

Nope, that is not how it works. The more details you give out the more they will be added to later.

By the time they get done adding to it there is so much said that you never even mentioned, it gets ridiculous. And that only gets added to in time.

Now the really sad part is knowing all of this and still spilling your guts. That really doesn't work very well in the brain cell department.

And I do vow to do better. Haven't managed you understand, but do try. And that is okay from my view. Because the nice thing about gossip is that you can always add more lies to it.