OUT OF CONTROL

Is it a shame when you run out of the gas of will power. Yeah, that is never a source of joy.

But who says you have to let anyone when your will's gas gauge is on empty? It isn't something I cant to admit.

So the first rule to me is don't admit it. If somebody asks you just give them the old what routine.

Meaning if they see you are acting different in strange way you just take time to be sure you don't agree. You say you are feeling fine.

That is a good start. Not necessarily a successful one, but a good start. Because it means you have a chance of fooling them.

Which is the most important part. At least it is to me. After all truth is so much better when it is the way you want it to be.

So come on. Tell it like it is. With a smile and then fake it afterwards. You will thank me in the morning.

Or anytime you can get away with it. Which for me is all the time. I just hope this inspires.

Got to have the moments of real inspiration. Well if you can fake it and that is good too if you can.

I say this so you don't feel all alone. Like some freak who never get to be in control. Which is why faking it is good.

So make it a game. One you can win any time you want. A chance to be sure you can actually savor driving some one nuts.

Because your mask stays on better than theirs. Oh yeah that counts. You sure will be happy if you can fake that part.

Ah it is all part of the joy. When helps hide the screams or whatever else you need to hide.

Hopefully nobody finds out either. That ruins the effects of the charade. So go ahead and love it.

We all need that. At least once and a while. And that is better than never. It is to smile if you can.

And I do it all the time.